HOLY GUACAMOLE
i am DYING here
i cant take this anymore cant take this cant take this cant take this
CANT TAKE THIS CANT TAKE THIS CANT TAKE THIS
THIS IS HORRID
HORRIBLE
HORRID
HORRIBLE
i'm going to freaking DIE.

I'M GOINGGOINGGOINGGOING TO DIE
DIEDIEDIE
i WISH i nv decided to start all this in the first place

LIFE SUUUUUCKS DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN

DAMN

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i am srsly feeling so
SHITTY right now
so ...
I MEAN THERE'S NO WAY OUT DAMN IT

and i CAN'T BELEIVE I'M BLOGGING AGAIN OMGNESS I'M THAT LIFELESS

I SHOULD NVER HAVE READ HIS NOTE
i'm going to DIEEEEE die die die DIEEEE.

he's too nice and i'm too different
YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID OMGZXLSAZ on FB?!
when asked if he was disappoitned with anybody
he said NOOOO NO POITN BEARING GRUDGES, I SUPPOSE I'M THE ONE WHO HAS TO CHANGE.
#$@*#%&^)!(&@(#*!$(*@#$^(^&)^&()(#$%!@#%!#$%#
why
why
why
why

is he so nice!
this' making me feel worse!
i'd rather he was the one feeling like this!
SERIOUSLY
I'D DEAL WITH IT!
SOME WAY OR ANOTHER
he won't be able to!

omgzlasx and now we're on msn
and he's being TOO NICE again!
every single little thing i say
he can interpret totally well
WHICH'S WORSE
or better in a sense..
WORSE because he can TOTALLY UNDERSTAND
how i feel now.
and MUCH WORSE also because he's trying to deny it still and work harder to correct it
how shitty a life is that.

i wish i nv got him into such deep shit.

sigh.

damn.


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NO that is not some vulgarity

helllll. this' so hard for me to handle
i shld've listened to mummy.

every single second
every single millisecondddd
i'm lying
lying so baddlyyy in his face
but if i dont
the results'll be worse!
now it's just so..
so so screwed
or maybe i'm going thru puberty.

AS I HAVE BEEN FOR THE PAST GAZILLION YEARS?!

OMGNESS PUBERTY CANT TAKE THAT LONG RIGHT?!
HELL

PUBERTY SUCKS

OMGNESS NOW I'M GOING HYSTERICAL

that's it from now on i gotta stop the caffeine.

grrrasfjlkdsjflkj
i gotta stop givign him false hope...
but what if it's not false hope?
what if i'm really gonna be okay soon
but not anytime soon that's all

but but well like ningxin said
everything can turn out the way i want it
CAN turn out.
CAN
possibility!
may or may not!
just like saying...
i may be able to magically get into harvard somehow
just somehow
of course there's that strange possiblity
but of course that possibility's slim
blablabla


whatever.

omgnesss.

this sucks
srsly
this sucks
like a straw
like a lollipop
it'll keep SUCKING till it's goneee!
^^
geddit
learn frm my little sister one.

sigggh.

okay i've finished my ranting

i'm gonna keep letting out my frustration here and keeping everythign else under wraps.

so if you guys are looking for happy gay blogposts

let me warn you in advance: GO SOMEWHR ELSE.

adios! xD

YEAHHHH it's the picture's fault!

okay so anyway, yesterday night me and my family went to Plaza Sing to watch
A Christmas Carol!
We nearly watched Gokusen! o.O o.O
cos my elder sis STRONGLY OBJECTED to Christmas Carol.
budden in the end they bought Christmas Carol tickets?
and they didn't tell my elder sis..
Don't know if that was intended. ^^

The show was quite good!
But we dropped some of our popcorn.. D:
my poor popcorn...
Dropped it while my little sis was passing it to me :P
so TECHNICALLY SHE dropped it.
I wanted salted popcorrrnn but we got mixed.
hehe i thinkthe cashier was very amused with me cos at the counter while she was filling the drink i was trying to persuade my dad to get salted
by going on and on about how they never met MY needs
not in the REAL whiny kid way of course. i'm way past that, i like to think.
xD
Then my little sister was on his other side groaning and asking for salted too
^^
Then when she moved on to the popcorn she had to look at my dad first
then our pleas got more urgent
then my dad ignored us and continued ordering mixed.
D:
BOOOOO.

Well anyways i think that, combined with two nights of Sushi in a row (<3)
as well as a very tiring week
(4 trainings and two days of frikkin dancing)
has helped in making meeee

SICK.

-.-

OMGZXLASZXFALSKDJFLK
pls let me get well in time for Cruise wth!
CRUIIIISEEE! D:
me want cruise!
CRUSIECRUISECRUISECRUISE.
i MUST go.
i will eat STEROIDS if i must!
my sickness shall not deter me!

Anyway about the movie


I THINK YOU GUYS SHOULD WATCH IT
if you got nothign else to watch.
in a good way!
don't watch it if you're looking for a good time
watch it if you.. want to just relax and hang out ish kinda thing
the plot is BLEHHH.
no plot
but it's thoguht provoking (ish)
and the visuals're good.
reaaaally good.
and a bit scary..
especially the Ghost of Christmas Yet To Come.
the Ghost of Christmas Past is so funny!

But it can really make u like. quite scared at some points.
suspenseful and eery!
Good show, good show.
and Jim Carrey of course was quite funny as well xD

even as an oldie.

siggghh
anyway now i gtg cos i'm gonna go get ready to go out with my grandma
to go bai bai
at my uncle's house.
i cant believe i gotta do this!
:P :P
i'll just go there and sleep or something
THEY BETTER NOT EXPECT ME TO CHAT I'M SICK.


okay adios.

Hmmm dunno why but everytiime i post the paragraphing screws up
and when i say that i mean it just disappears.
So i'm going to try without photos.

now i'm gonna try it.

and then i post.